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| MINE old dear enemy, my froward master, | |
| Afore that Queen I caused to be acited, | |
| Which holdeth the divine part of our nature; | |
| That like as gold in fire, he might be tried: | |
| Charged with dolour, there I me presented, | 5 |
| With horrible fear, as one that greatly dreadeth | |
| A wrongful death, and justice alway seeketh. | |
| And thus I said: Once my left foot, Madame, | |
| When I was young, I set within his reign; | |
| Whereby other than fiery burning flame | 10 |
| I never felt, but many a grievous pain: | |
| Torment I sufferd, anger and disdain; | |
| That mine oppressed patience was past, | |
| And I mine own life hated at the last. | |
| Thus hitherto have I my time passed | 15 |
| In pain and smart: what ways profitable, | |
| How many pleasant days have me escaped, | |
| In serving this false liar so deceivable? | |
| What wit have words so prest and forcible, | |
| That may contain my great mishappiness, | 20 |
| And just complaints of his ungentleness? | |
| So small honey, much aloes, and gall, | |
| In bitterness, my blind life have I tasted: | |
| His false semblance, that turneth as a ball, | |
| With fair and amorous dance, made me be traced; | 25 |
| And where I had my thought, and mind araised | |
| From earthly frailness, and from vain pleasure, | |
| Me from my rest he took, and set in error. | |
| God made he me regardless, than I ought, | |
| And to myself to take right little heed: | 30 |
| And for a woman have I set at nought | |
| All other thoughts, in this only to speed: | |
| And he was only counsellor of this deed; | |
| Whetting always my youthly frail desire | |
| On cruel whetstone, tempered with fire. | 35 |
| But oh, alas, where had I ever wit, | |
| Or other gift given to me of nature? | |
| That sooner shall be changed my wearied sprite | |
| Than the obstinate will, that is my ruler: | |
| So robbeth he my freedom with displeasure; | 40 |
| This wicked traitor, whom I thus accuse: | |
| That bitter life hath turned in pleasant use. | |
| He hath me hasted through divers regions; | |
| Through desert woods, and sharp high mountains; | |
| Through froward people, and through bitter passions; | 45 |
| Through rocky seas, and over hills and plains; | |
| With weary travel, and with laborous pains; | |
| Always in trouble and in tediousness, | |
| In all error, and dangerous distress. | |
| But neither he nor she, my other foe, | 50 |
| For all my flight did ever me forsake: | |
| That though my timely death hath been too slow, | |
| That me, as yet, it hath not overtake: | |
| The heavenly gods of pity do it slake! | |
| And note they this his cruel tyranny, | 55 |
| That feeds him with my care, and misery! | |
| Since I was his, hour rested I never, | |
| Nor look to do; and eke the wakey nights | |
| The banished sleep may in no wise recover | |
| By guile and force, over my thralled sprites. | 60 |
| He is ruler, since which bell never strikes | |
| That I hear not as sounding to renew my plaints. | |
| Himself he knoweth that I say true. | |
| For never worms old rotten stock have eaten, | |
| As he my heart, where he is resident, | 65 |
| And doth the same with death daily threaten; | |
| Thence come the tears, and thence the bitter torment, | |
| The sighs, the words, and eke the languishment, | |
| That annoy both me, and peradventure other: | |
| Judge thou that knowest the one, and eke the other. | 70 |
| Mine adversary with such grievous reproof, | |
| Thus he began; Hear, Lady, the other part; | |
| That the plain truth, from which he draweth aloof, | |
| This unkind man may shew, ere that I part: | |
| In his young age, I took him from that art, | 75 |
| That selleth words, and make a clattering knight, | |
| And of my wealth I gave him the delight. | |
| Now shames he not on me for to complain, | |
| That held him evermore in pleasant game, | |
| From his desire, that might have been his pain: | 80 |
| Yet thereby alone I brought him to some frame; | |
| Which now as wretchedness, he doth so blame; | |
| And toward honour quickened I his wit, | |
| Where as a dastard else he might have sit. | |
| He knoweth how great Atrides, that made Troy fret; | 85 |
| And Hannibal to Rome so troublous; | |
| Whom Homer honoured, Achilles that great; | |
| And African Scipion, the famous; | |
| And many other, by much honour glorious; | |
| Whose fame and acts did lift them up above; | 90 |
| I did let fall in base dishonest love. | |
| And unto him, though he unworthy were, | |
| I chose the best of many a million; | |
| That under sun yet never was her peer | |
| Of wisdom, womanhood, and of discretion; | 95 |
| And of my grace I gave her such a fashion, | |
| And eke such way I taught her for to teach, | |
| That never base thought his heart so high might reach. | |
| Evermore thus to content his mistress, | |
| That was his only frame of honesty, | 100 |
| I stirred him still toward gentleness; | |
| And caused him to regard fidelity; | |
| Patience I taught him in adversity: | |
| Such virtues learned he in my great school; | |
| Whereof repenteth now the ignorant fool. | 105 |
| These were the same deceits, and bitter gall, | |
| That I have used, the torment and the anger, | |
| Sweeter than ever did to other fall; | |
| Of right good seed ill fruit, lo, thus I gather; | |
| And so shall he that the unkind doth further: | 110 |
| A serpent nourish I under my wing, | |
| And now of nature ginneth he to sting. | |
| And for to tell, at last, my great service; | |
| From thousand dishonesties have I him drawen, | |
| That by my means, him in no manner wise | 115 |
| Never vile pleasure once hath overthrowen; | |
| Where in his deed, shame hath him always gnawen; | |
| Doubting report that should come to her ear: | |
| Whom now he blames, her wonted he to fear. | |
| Whatever he hath of any honest custom, | 120 |
| Of her, and me, that holds he every whit: | |
| But lo, yet never was there nightly phantom | |
| So far in error, as he is from his wit | |
| To plain on us: he striveth with the bit, | |
| Which may rule him, and do him ease, and pain, | 125 |
| And in one hour make all his grief his gain. | |
| But one thing yet there is, above all other: | |
| I gave him wings, wherewith he might upfly | |
| To honour and fame; and if he would to higher | |
| Than mortal things, above the starry sky: | 130 |
| Considering the pleasure that an eye | |
| Might give in earth, by reason of the love; | |
| What should that be that lasteth still above? | |
| And he the same himself hath said ere this: | |
| But now, forgotten is both that and I, | 135 |
| That gave him her, his only wealth and bliss. | |
| And at this word, with deadly shriek and cry, | |
| Thou gave her once, quod I, but by and by | |
| Thou took her ayen from me, that woe-worth thee! | |
| Not I, but price; more worth than thou. quod he. | 140 |
| At last, each other for himself concluded, | |
| I trembling still, but he, with small reverence; | |
| Lo, thus, as we each other have accused, | |
| Dear lady, now we wait thine only sentence. | |
| She smiling, at the whisted audience, | 145 |
| It liketh me, quod she, to have heard your question, | |
| But longer time doth ask a resolution. | |
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