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Benvenuto Cellini (1500–1571). Autobiography.
The Harvard Classics. 1909–14.

This Capitolo I Write to Luca Martin Addressing Him in It As Will Appear

WHOSO would know the power of God’s dominion,

And how a man resembles that high good,

Must lie in prison, is my firm opinion:

 

On grievous thoughts and cares of home must brood,

Oppressed with carking pains in flesh and bone,

Far from his native land full many a rood.

 

If you would fain by worthy deeds be known,

Seek to be prisoned without cause, lie long,

And find no friend to listen to your moan.

 

See that men rob you of your all by wrong;

Add perils to your life; be used with force,

Hopeless of help, by brutal foes and strong.

 

Be driven at length to some mad desperate course;

Burst from your dungeon, leap the castle wall;

Recaptured, find the prison ten times worse.

 

Now listen, Luca, to the best of all!

Your leg’s been broken; you’ve been bought and sold;

Your dungeon’s dripping; you’ve no cloak or shawl.

 

Never one friendly word; your victuals cold

Are brought with sorry news by some base groom

Of Prato—soldier now—druggist of old.

 

Mark well how Glory steeps her sons in gloom!

You have no seat to sit on, save the stool:

Yet were you active from your mother’s womb.

 

The knave who serves hath orders strict and cool

To list no word you utter, give you naught,

Scarcely to ope the door; such is their rule.

 

These toys hath Glory for her nursling wrought!

No paper, pens, ink, fire, or tools of steel,

To exercise the quick brain’s teeming thought.

 

Alack that I so little can reveal!

Fancy one hundred for each separate ill:

Full space and place I’ve left for prison weal!

 

But now my former purpose to fulfil,

And sing the dungeon’s praise with honour due—

For this angelic tongues were scant of skill.

 

Here never languish honest men and true,

Except by placemen’s fraud, misgovernment,

Jealousies, anger, or some spiteful crew.

 

To tell the truth whereon my mind is bent,

Here man knows God, nor ever stints to pray,

Feeling his soul with hell’s fierce anguish rent.

 

Let one be famed as bad as mortal may,

Send him in jail two sorry years to pine,

He’ll come forth holy, wise, beloved alway.

 

Here soul, flesh, clothes their substance gross refine;

Each bulky lout grows light like gossamere;

Celestial thrones before purged eyeballs shine.

 

I’ll tell thee a great marvel! Friend, give ear!

The fancy took me on one day to write:

Learn now what shifts one may be put to here.

 

My cell I search, prick brows and hair upright,

Then turn me toward a cranny in the door,

And with my teeth a splinter disunite;

 

Next find a piece of brick upon the floor,

Crumble a part thereof to powder small,

And form a paste by sprinkling water o’er.

 

Then, then came Poesy with fiery call

Into my carcass, by the way methought

Whence bread goes forth—there was none else at all.

 

Now to return unto my primal thought:

Who wills to know what weal awaits him, must

First learn the ill that God for him hath wrought.

 

The jail contains all arts in act and trust;

Should you but hanker after surgeon’s skill,

’Twill draw the spoiled blood from your veins adust.

 

Next there is something in itself that will

Make you right eloquent, a bold brave spark,

Big with high-soaring thoughts for good and ill.

 

Blessed is the man who lies in dungeon dark,

Languishing many a month, then takes his flight

Of war, truce, peace he knows, and tells the mark.

 

Needs be that all things turn to his delight;

The jail has crammed his brains so full of wit,

They’ll dance no morris to upset the wight.

 

Perchance thou’lt urge: “Think how thy life did flit;

Nor is it true the jail can teach thee lore,

To fill thy breast and heart with strength of it!”

 

Nay, for myself I’ll ever praise it more:

Yet would I like one law passed—that the man

Whose acts deserve it should not scape this score.

 

Whoso hath gotten the poor folk in ban,

I’d make him learn those lessons of the jail;

For then he’d know all a good ruler can:

 

He’d act like men who weigh by reason’s scale,

Nor dare to swerve from truth and right aside,

Nor would confusion in the realm prevail.

 

While I was bound in prison to abide,

Foison of priests, friars, soldiers I could see;

But those who best deserved it least I spied.

 

Ah! could you know what rage came over me,

When for such rogues the jail relaxed her hold!

This makes one weep that one was born to be!

 

I’ll add no more. Now I’m become fine gold,

Such gold as none flings lightly to the wind,

Fit for the best work eyes shall e’er behold.

 

Another point hath passed into my mind,

Which I’ve not told thee, Luca; where I wrote,

Was in the book of one our kith and kind.

 

There down the margins I was wont to note

Each torment grim that crushed me like a vice:

The paste my hurrying thoughts could hardly float.

 

To make an O, I dipped the splinter thrice

In that thick mud; worse woe could scarcely grind

Spirits in hell debarred from Paradise.

 

Seeing I’m not the first by fraud confined,

This I’ll omit; and once more seek the cell

Wherein I rack for rage both heart and mind.

 

I praise it more than other tongues will tell;

And, for advice to such as do not know,

Swear that without it none can labour well.

 

Yet oh! for one like Him I learned but now,

Who’d cry to me as by Bethesda’s shore:

Take thy clothes, Benvenuto, rise and go!

 

Credo I’d sing, Salve reginas pour

And Paternosters; alms I’d then bestow

Morn after morn on blind folk, lame, and poor.

 

Ah me! how many a time my cheek must grow

Blanched by those lilies! Shall I then forswear

Florence and France through them for evermore?

 

If to the hospital I come, and fair

Find the Annunziata limned. I’ll fly:

Else shall I show myself a brute beast there.

 

These words flout not Her worshipped sanctity,

Nor those Her lilies, glorious, holy, pure,

The which illumine earth and heaven high!

 

But for I find at every coign obscure

Base lilies which spread hooks where flowers should blow

Needs must I fear lest these to ruin lure.

 

To think how many walk like me in woe!

Born what, how slaved to serve that hateful sign!

Souls lively, graceful, like to gods below!

 

I saw that lethal heraldry decline

From heaven like lightning among people vain;

Then on the stone I saw strange lustre shine.

 

The castle’s bell must break ere I with strain

Thence issued; and these things Who speaketh true

In heaven on earth, to me made wondrous plain.

 

Next I beheld a bier of sombre hue

Adorned with broken lilies; crosses, tears;

And on their beds a lost woe-stricken crew.

 

I saw the Death who racks our souls with fears;

This man and that she menaced, while she cried:

“I clip the folk who harm thee with these shears!”

 

That worthy one then on my brow wrote wide

With Peter’s pen words which—for he bade shun

To speak them thrice—within my breast I hide.

 

Him I beheld who drives and checks the sun,

Clad with its splendour ’mid his court on high,

Seld-seen by mortal eyes, if e’er by one.

 

Then did a solitary sparrow cry

Loud from the keep; hearing which note, I said:

“He tells that I shall live and you must die!”

 

I sang, and wrote my hard case, head by head,

Asking from god pardon and aid in need,

For now If felt mine eyes outworn and dead.

 

Ne’er lion, tiger, wolf, or bear knew greed

Hungrier than that man felt for human blood;

Nor viper with more venomous fang did feed.

 

The cruel chief was he of robbers’ brood,

Worst of the worst among a gang of knaves;

Hist! I’ll speak soft lest I be understood!

 

Say, have ye seen catchpolls, the famished slaves,

In act a poor man’s homestead to distrain,

Smashing down Christs, Madonnas, with their staves?

 

So on the first of August did that train

Dislodge me to a tomb more foul, more cold:—

“November damns and dooms each rogue to pain!”

 

I at mine ears a trumpet had which told

Truth; and each word to them I did repeat,

Reckless, if but grief’s load from me were rolled.

 

They, when they saw their final hope retreat,

Gave me a diamond, pounded, no fair ring,

Deeming that I must die if I should eat.

 

That villain churl whose office ’twas to bring

My food, I bade taste first; but meanwhile thought:

“Not here I find my foe Durante’s sting!”

 

Yet erst my mind unto high God I brought

Beseeching Him to pardon all my sin,

And spoke a Miserere sorrow-fraught.

 

Then when I gained some respite from that din

Of troubles, and had given my soul to God,

Contented better realms and state to win,

 

I saw along the path which saints have trod,

From heaven descending, glad, with glorious palm,

An angel: clear he cried, “Upon earth’s sod

 

Live longer thou! Through Him who heard thy psalm,

Those foes shall perish, each and all, in strife,

While thou remainest happy, free, and calm,

Blessed by our Sire in heaven on earth for life!”